hide and seek

Written November 2, 2017

It only happened once.

Yes it did.

But it's scary.

So I brushed it off my mind and thought it's not a mem'ry.

It only happened once.

Or maybe.

Did it really occur?

Maybe it's not what I think it is.

It happened.

Yes it did.

And maybe it didn't

Because the world doesn't know it did

But it happened.

Not once.

Maybe a million times

And it keeps replaying in my head

Because I know it did.

And I'm not wrong

It isn't right

And I'm not dreaming

As it keeps replaying

The monster is in me.

I had a nightmare.

It's not a nightmare

It's worse than a nightmare.

And the monster keeps showing

Engulfing me in the darkness

Sucking me alive...

No! No please! No!

I don't want it!

Help me!!!

It happened once.

It happened forever.

And I'm scared.

#ptsd #abuse #childhood